I had my first appointment with therapist Mimi this morning and I’m feeling really good about her and our dynamics. We spend our first session together doing a lot of history taking, which is totally normal. We talked about when my disordered eating began, how it progressed and where I (ed) am today. We talked about triggers to binges, how unpredictable they are, and how predictable they can be. (For those of you who don’t know, I was 15 when I first starting restricting and over-exercising. I am now 29.) We discussed when ED went from restricting to bingeing and why that switch happened. Since everything started in high school, we spent a lot of time talking about those years within my family, my circle of friends, etc. She asked about my family dynamics presently and how they’ve evolved.
What I like about Mimi and what I’ve searched for in a therapist, is that she doesn’t sit there with a blank face as she listens. In social work school, we are tought to listen without showing signs of judgement one way or another and to limit our suggestions and feedback–letting the client do a lot of the work. I understand this method and believe it works for many, many people. Not for me. I want someone who will speak up when something sounds off or agree/disagree with me when I talk about something twisted. Mimi did that and we had some really great laugh out loud moments. She jokes around. Once I swore, she felt okay doing it too. I like that! I like that because I love to swear, and having her do it too means she’s a real person who isn’t trying too hard to seem professional. We talked for 45 minutes before it was time to wrap up. In closing she said, “You’re going to get over this. You really will.” This gave me such hope because I’ve often wondered if it’s really possible. I’ve wondered if I’ll be living in the haze of disordered eating forever. She said that when I as younger I probably didn’t have the internal ability to work through my emotions in a positive way but that I have those abilities now.She didn’t assign me any homework for next week but I can’t wait to see what comes next. I’ll certainly keep you posted. My blog never came up but when the timing is right I’ll fill her in. There’s nothing on here that I’m ashamed of (minus eating donut after donut after donut)or that she wouldn’t be informed about in the first place. If anyone wants to know more about counseling or the process, please feel free to email me @ email@example.com. I’d be so happy to help!
After therapy I hit the gym for 3 miles on the treadmill. Len and I snoozed through our morning wake up call to run so I was on my own. The good news is that I just roasted potatoes, beets, onions, garlic and turnips. I have to fight off the leftover pizza so those should do the trick. Have you all ever tried to peel beets? Those suckers are tricky. Also, while peeling turnips (wait, are they turnips or parsnips?) I couldn’t help but notice a horseradish aroma. Hmmmmmm…. I wonder if there’s a connection there. Google here I come!
Rumor is that Boston is getting a snow storm on Wednesday. I wish it would hold off till Thursday so my classes would be canceled.