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Learning to focus less on dieting and more on overall health and wellness

wordpress help/therapy/ ramblings.

Hey lovelies! So….. WordPress is saying that I’ve met my quota with pictures and won’t let me upload any more. Hmmm….any wordpress users experience this before? Not sure where to go from here. They are advising that I delete some records but I really don’t want to erase old posts.

So Mimi and I had a session this morning and I told her all about my struggles following the three category rule. I said, “I can’t just have one cookie, one chip, and one piece of chocolate. That definitely leads to a binge.” She said “Yes.” Huh? She reminded me that the point of this is to not have to battle bingeing on those particular day of the week. To not feel restricted. When I’m at my internship on Mondays, Wednesdays and Thursday I should not be having an internal battle with the bins/binge. I should eat from any three categories I chose without guilt, without fighting, without shame. I should make sure to have a dinner that isn’t binge foods. The other days of the week I can do whatever I want. She reminded me that we are working with long-term goals in mind. I am struggling to accept that I can binge three days a week. I’ve been given permission. Mimi tells me that I don’t need permission to eat these foods and that I have choices to make. I am the only who puts the restrictions on myself and labels certain food as bad or good. The experiment will continue and I’m going to stop fighting it. She’s a professional. This is her job. I’m rolling with it.   The other piece of my homework is to think about the feelings that sort of sit with me on a daily basis. Not the feelings immediately before or after a binge, but the feelings that are more constant, be in loneliness, boredom, etc.

Ellie and I just took a nice long walk and she got to play with her bulldog boyfriend, George. They are so cute together. It took is 45 minutes to walk 1.15 miles. Jeez. The two of them just wouldn’t stop licking all up on each other. I finally got a good run in and recorded my fasted mile to date. Sweet! The weather is absolutely perfect outside so it made it much easier to workout.  For brunch, I ate two pieces of that polenta Quiche. Tasted better cold.

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Don’t forget to enter my Clif bar giveaway. Two winners will be picked Friday morning at 10 eastern time.

Did I mention it’s Spring Break? This broad ain’t strippin’ down in a tinie bikini anytime soon.

March 2, 2010 Posted by | Clif Bar, eating disorder, Food, giveaway, goals, running, therapy | 20 Comments