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Learning to focus less on dieting and more on overall health and wellness

What happens in therapy, doesn’t stay in therapy.

Due to reader demands, I will happily share what took place this morning with the Mimi-Miester.

Okay- We started by targeting the most troublesome days for me throughout the week in terms of bingeing. Although there is generally no rhyme or reason to the binges, I know for certain that Mondays, Wednesdays and Thursdays are really hard for me due to the bins of doom at my internship. If you are a new reader, you should know that my internship has a closet devoted to all types of snacks and candy that we give to the kids. I often get myself in trouble around 2 when the snacks come out. She asked what kind of snacks there are–candy, chocolate, chips, crackers, cookies. What came next surprised me– Mondays, Wednesdays and Thursdays are your binge days. On those days, you can eat from three of those categories. If you decide to have chocolate, cookies and chips, you can eat as much of them as you want but you cannot have crackers or candy as your binge food. You can’t stop at Dunkin Donuts on the way home for a donut, but you can get a cookie because it’s in the category you already chose.  You have to stay within the three categories chosen. You should have a dinner that isn’t composed of binge food and only you know what’s considered binge food.  On the other days you can binge or not binge–whatever.

Okay I said, well hopefully I can resist all the categories on Mondays, Wednesdays and Thursdays. She replied no, that’s exactly what we don’t want you to do. We don’t want you to be having the constant internal battle on those days about whether or not you’re going to eat the snacks and binge. On those three days of the week, you must eat something from all three categories. Even if you eat just one chip,  one Hershey kiss, and one cookie– you can consider that a binge. (Not that that’s really a binge in technical terms.)

I asked where she was going with this and she replied that giving myself choices on those three days, lessens the toxicity of binges and helps to make them less special. Right now I’m bingeing to rebel, say F-you to everyone, get needs met, etc–they are special. The idea is to lessen the power of the binges and regain some control. To have choices. She also said that if this doesn’t feel right over the course of the week, then stop doing it. Regardless, we’ll process the experience next week and take it from there. I asked her what the end result of treatment looks like for someone like me and she said to greatly reduce the frequency of bingeing.

I know this method sounds totally bizarre but I trust that Mimi is having me do this for a reason so I’m going with it.

February 16, 2010 Posted by | Food, therapy | 22 Comments

Session 2

Well, looks like the snow is over for now here in Boston. It was great while it lasted though. Before going to counseling, Ellie and I hit up a snowy field where she ran around like the crazy lady that she is. I always get a little nervous going to dog parks and things of that nature because Eleanor will do anything for a ball. And I mean anything. At about 10 weeks old she was involved in a nasty fight and it scared the living day lights out of me. Now, when she’s around random dogs I always get a little anxious and I’m sure she picks up on it. I wish I wasn’t giving off that vibe but I can’t help it. Luckily, Lens a little calmer than I am about it so we’ll go to parks together. This morning I hoped and prayed she was the only dog there and she was. Score. She was one with the field.

Anyways, last night Len did a quick grocery shop for us. He’s super aware of the things I like in the house but always puts his own twist to them which is a welcomed treat.  Last night he came hope with a bunch of veggies (I just couldn’t wait till my delivery on Thursday), hummus, pepper jack cheese, ranch soy chips, a NEW veggie product (which will be revealed soon), and 2 bags of Fresh Start salad mixers. I personally never buy these but am totally stocked that he did. Last night we made one of the bags that contained spinach, feta and provolone crumbles, croutons and a light honey mustard. YUM!! We paired it with whole wheat pasta, sauce and mushrooms.

Counseling today with Mimi went well. We came up with a strategy for the week which I think is really interesting. The goal for the coming weeks is to detoxify my binges and make them less special. One of the long-term goals is to decrease the frequency of binges. Yes, please. I’m a little torn about how in-depth I should go on my blog about each session but think it can be helpful to other people who struggle. I am definitely not looking for negative feedback about the therapeutic methods that we are trying out. What may work for me, might not work or sound good to you. With that said, I am totally open to talking openly about my experiences in counseling and what is working, what’s not working and how I feel along the way. Please let me know if this is something that you as the readers are interested in hearing about. If not, I’ll spare you all the details of my saga.

Post session, I hit the gym up for a little TM action and some ROWING!! What’s up bitches. Yep, I was inspired by Gabe and Rachel though I think I’m rowing wrong. Is that possible? I just kinda hopped on and rolled with it, never choosing a setting or anything. Any help out there? Because I was out and about breakfast never happened but lunch did. I dig right into the second salad mixer and ate half of it. This one included lettuce, pine nuts, soy nuts and poppy seed dressing. I used oil and vinegar instead and topped it with half cup of pinto beans, olives and a veggie burger. Basically I pimped it out. No big deal.

I missed my hot sauce

I have a paper to work on for my policy class and reading for my psychodynamic  (snoozefest USA) class. Back later my lovies!

February 16, 2010 Posted by | dogs, eating disorder, Food, running, Self Discovery, therapy | | 9 Comments